Bless your heart. You've been through so much. In no way can I offer words of wisdom. Except to say that I will say a prayer for you and your family. I have two boys.............I feel your anxiety. I lost my aunt, grandmother and mom....all within two years, but I feel them all the time. Close your eyes and count.....10 to 1.
It's something that I hold very close, and I hope it helps you.
Mandi

Husband diagnosed with stage III tonsil and floor of mouth cancer in August 2002. Three rounds of chemo/42 RAD treatments. Upper right lung lobectomy in March 2003. (Benign)