Hi All ,

in a few hours I will be going for My Ct Scan of the moutain growing on my Jaw ..ok ok I am exhagerating it is a mole hill...still it is there ! Do you think the person doing it will be kind enough to give me any hint ? We just got home a while ago, My oldest daughter marched in a parade , she plays saxaphone, then we took the kids to the drive in to see shrek 3 , of course I cant sleep, no big plans for the weekend although I want to do somthing.I have a wierd gut feeling and while I have lots of aniexty and parinoia alot of times my gut feelings are right. in alot of things ....And I also have been known to have realistic strange dreams..in which come true..sooooo I know I could be jumping the gun, But I am guarenteed to be OK this Memorial day and there are NO Guarentees for next.( In anything ) so I want to do somthing fun with the kids. Not that I wouldn't anyhow , but hubby ..not so much ..he is a home body whom only has interest in doing things of his own interest. I try to explain that when you are a parent it isnt about you , it is about them and US . so they like parades, picinics and beaches. Not just Motocross,softball,fishing and hunting . So we will see where the weekend takes us . I tried for the ocean ..not working so well for me ..it is 5 hours away , but that is my safe place , my sanity , and my children LOVE IT. but no go ..so we will ssee how things go, on all counts today and the weekend. I just can't help think it is not going to go my way ( either issue LOL ) But at this moment I am at peace with that . because somehow It may make a difference for some one else. I saw another dentist at the parade tonight and he asked me to come talk to him with my brochures on oral cancer and also the velscope. Education and awareness....I guess are my reasons for the cancer.............Go figure