Lee - my son also had trouble finding the Carnation VHC. I finally got it online. If you just do a search for Carnation VHC you'll see several sites that supply it. It might be a good idea to only get a small quantity to see if you like it. My son's taste seemed to change quite often sometimes within just a few hours. In the beginning he liked tapioca but that didn't last long, then softly scrambled eggs, milkshakes going from chocolate, strawberry, vanilla to no milkshakes at all. Chicken noodle soups lasted quite a while and grilled cheese with lots of butter. Now he enjoys most everything except not cheese (too sticky) and no chocolate. I guess you just have to try different stuff and see what works. Good luck with your treatment. It's a rough roller coaster ride but you can do it!