I went through similiar sugery 4 years ago and am still dealing with reconstruction. It will all be better but takes time and you many look a different way...but of course beautiful! The hardest part of the reconstruction(s) I've expereinced is the limitations with the lower dentures (constant frustration) and the lower lip reconstruction limitations. I'm still working on getting "closure" of my mouth so I'm not spitting on people when I do have spit available. The worst moment for me after the initial surgery was seeing my face! I think all of us on this site can relate to that one!