How do I even begin to say thank you, for all your kind words and support. It means sooo much. I do have family, I actually live next to my parents, They were married for 40 years. I have a Husband and a 5 year old little girl. I was my moms main caregiver, and spent most of my time crushing pills and feeding her and just spending time with her. We wanted so badly to beat this, I spent so much time reading here, that when we went to the doctors i got asked several times if I was a nurse. At times I do feel like I was more informed then they were. I have to believe God took her from me for a reason, she wasnt getting better and she was suffering. Now I am just looking for answers on what exactly happened, In time I hope to have thase answers. Thanks again to all, Tinaelise thank you for that poem, I hope its ok to reprint.