Karen: I am so sorry that you have to deal with the loss of your mother during the holidays! If you lived in northern California I would invite you over for a cup of tea/glass of wine in front of the fire, just to talk about your mom and what she was like when she was healthy. It sounds like you loved her very much, she must have been a good mom and a good person. This is a really tough thing to deal with during the holidays. Sending hugs to you and wishing there was something I could do to ease your loss. Take care! - Candace