Thanks Brian I made a copy of your note and I am putting it on my office(home) wall to keep me focused on the "end" game which is to get thru this and back to my life. I already am a different person and I expect there will be other changes which as you say will probably not be all bad.I will take your advice on the journal etc. which my wife has already started. I do commercial real estate consulting, appraisal and investing which I can do for the most part in my home so I am going to try to keep my mind engaged to some degree and hopfully try not to watch too much Oprah etc. Thanks again for your words and I will stay in touch thru OCF.