Hope you get the best possible news from your meeting with the surgeon Jennifer. I know what you mean about reading too much, before then, and thinking the worst. I did a little of that too. It's a good idea to manage the information you expose yourself to at first, so you don't get too scared over things that may not be relevant to your case.

Some people ask their spouses or a friend to do more of the reading at first and then share it with them. I preferred to read on my own but found it a much more focused and less scary endeavor once I had more info. about my disease from my docs.