I haven't really earned the right to say much here on the boards yet but I do understand pretty well how you feel as far as being on the ledge goes. I'm there as well and it is the worst thing in the world. Acceptance is very hard but everyone here has said that it gets easier if that is what you want to achieve. Me..I'm just going off the deep end. Sometimes being on the edge, maybe it's not so far down. Kinda like the song. This stuff is soooo hard to deal with and is really beyond the realm of what ordinsry people will ever have to feel or deal with.
Please forgive me if I say something wrong.