Hello, all!
I've been reading LOTS of your past posts recently and I really must say this is a most loving and caring group that I have stumbled onto. I'm really glad I found it.
I am FINALLY (Diag 14Feb) to start treatment on this Thu, 24Apr (Chemo-5fu, Cistplatin, and Taxotere) This is a clinical trial where the taxotere is the wild card. Mostly used for breast cancer, I'm apprehensive about its' strength/toxicities. I've already been pretty much incapacitated with just the pain (and meds!), but am anxious about side-effects in general but in particular this combo. They want to do 3 cycles of 1 dose every 21 days and then radiation. (Hopefully smaller field so it won't kill my salivary glands)
I am in treatment at Grady in Atl, with Emory doctors/trainees, so I feel confident that they are fairly "cutting edge" folks, but the whole process is very dehumanizing. I am especially frustrated by the amount of time that has passed since the original diagnoses. ^$%$# bureaucracy...THIS IS MY LIFE! I feel that when originally seen, it was small enough to be completly removed by minimally invasive surgery (stage I), which was originally planned, but now has progressed to stage III or early IV!!!!!! due to delays and unforseen circumstances)
I have been trying to be proactive in my approach and have just finished a class on "raw and living foods" that seems to have "cured" a number of folks from various ailments-- mostly CANCER. I tend to be just a little skeptical about "holy rollers" testimonials- esp when I hear "don't do chemo/radiation at all- GO NATURAL!" My heart wants to believe that this is the way but I know in my gut that this will just have to be a "complementary" thing. I'm SO ANXIOUS AND CONFUSED YET strangely HOPFULL that all will be well. I've never had cancer before and never even KNOWN anyone who had it, and feel adrift........
BOY!!! can I relate to the folks who have been honest with their fears and have just wanted to BOLT!!! Just get in the car and drive so far that it'll never catch up!!!
sorry for such a long post. Hope to hear some healing and strengthening words from you healers out there. God bless you all.
Gordon in Atl