Please help me, I've spent many sleepless nights trying to decide weather to go through the operation or not. According to my doctor, having the procedure will lower my chances of having a recurrence but with no guarantees. I really don't know what to do. I keep on thinking that the recovery from radiation is not over, I feel sick, have ear pain, throat pain , I'm still drinking and eating through the tube and now I'll have this surgery and go back even further. Please, please help me decide.