I finally gave into my need to research and find out everything (no matter how scary) about my cancer. We had a hurricane in my area during the time I was at your stage of this journey, we lost power for 7 days. My husband bought a generator so my laptop could stay operating, he knew how important it was to me to keep reading. Give yourself permission to research it, it helps.
Also, Amy makes a great suggestion..........go outside. That alone helped me SO much.

SCC Left Mandible. Jaw replaced with bone from leg. Neck disection, 37 radiation treatments. Recurrence 8-28-07, stage 2, tongue. One third of tongue removed 10-4-07. 5-23-08 chemo started for tumor behind swallowing passage, Our good friend and much loved OCF member Minnie has been lost to the disease (RIP 10-29-08). We will all miss her greatly.