Welcome Miss Vicki,

It feels good to vent and let off a little steam.
I am truly sorry you have to go thru this again. It does suck. One thing i've learned about life in general is nothing is fair. You play the hand your dealt. At the end of all your emotions I think we have to accept things we can't control.
As Gary amd many others have said, "Live each day to the fullest, Live in the present. We all never really know when that bus will hit us. I hope you can find some comfort on this forum. There is a ton of experience you can tap into.
Helpful, caring, loving people who are all going through a similer situation. We each react different to similer situations. But we are always here for each other. We are here for you also!!!

Your Friend, Dan