OK, Brian, count me in, I`ve done my best to put the bad parts of disease behind me. It doesn`t seem possible that Packer will be gone 6 months. I never thought life would ever brighten up, but the universe always seems to have surprises for us.I have a beautiful new life, getting married in a couple weeks,in a cemetery, which seems appropriate to my new outlook on life.........live every day like it`s your last. And the universe does take care of us........I did my very best to care for Frank and walk by his side, I have no regrets about any of the 6 years we battled this crap,I thought I could turn my back on oral cancer and put it all behind me, but guilt reared it`s ugly head, there is too much I can do to help yet, so,Brian, whatever you need, let me know..........Dee