On behalf of all of us at OCF I offer our sympathies. We are sorry for your pain, and your loss. The experience of mourning, is an extended journey. Three things are fundamental to mourning. First, each loss we experience launches us on an inescapable course through grief. Second, each loss revives all past losses, their memories still reside in us. Third, each loss, if fully mourned, can be a vehicle for growth and regeneration. I hope that at the appropriate time you reach that point of growth and regeneration.