I also fear re-occurrance. I had small white patches that I FOUND MYSELF all during 2005. I went thru 3 surgeries at the Local Oral Surgeon's office for biopsies. Each time they came back calling it Leukoplakia, blah, blah..that could turn in to cancer. That alone was bad enough.

Finally the 4th time I saw a small white patch, I insisted on someone with more expertise. So I chose Sloan Kettering in Feb 2006. I had surgery, I recoverd (more or less) and went thru 2 checkups.

Now it is August, and I found some white patches a couple weeks ago, watched them, went to the dentist, and then made an appointment. Someone here said don't wait..let them diagnose. I agree, so I made the appointment (Thank you to whomever for that advice)

These lousy spots, they seem to come and go.

Am I crazy?? I look in my mouth, with fear, all the time.. praying no new thing will pop up. Meanwhile, I have an appt. 9/1/06 for Sloan Doctors to look at it. I had 2 good checkups..this will be #3..and it scares me, but this morning I look in, and its almost gone? I think I lost it?? Maybe it jumped out on to my toothbrush. I wish!!

Life is so busy, I have elder relatives I take care of, I don't have time to be sick.. I hate it and I hate the paranoia .

Thank God for this website. I feel so much better, I learn from each of you, and I pray for you all. I may be at the beginning of a battle, but I refuse to lose the war.