Youngster
Your imagination is running riot with you!
Please stop reading all this STUFF until you get a handle on what is going on with you . You are scaring yourself SILLY!
Please,, just do what you have to to make yourself feel better but you are not "screwed", a bit screwed up maybe, but not "screwed".

Marica

Caregiver to husband Pete, Dx 4/03 SCC Base of Tongue Stage IV. Chemo /Rad no surgery. Treatment finished 8/03. Doing great!