Tina, you`re right, about the roller coaster.....somewhere, some way, you will find the strength to fight the battle.....Sometimes, it takes getting really angry, and saying Hell, No, I`m not ready to go ! I know how scared you and Mike are right now, fear walks the path with us......but I`ve learned we as souls can fight battles, we never asked for, and even some we lose,we still win the war...........Peace and Prayers..........Dee