Okay, Eric. You are right where everything IS really scary, but take a deep breath and know that so many of us have been there and are now looking back. Don't worry about the PEG - it will become a good friend. I had the modified radical neck dissection and it is much easier to recover from and live with than the name makes it seem. Very minimal pain, if any. Lots of swelling, but that will eventually subside. I had a graft from the forearm and you can look forward to a small miracle there. When first done, it looks like a shark took a large bite, but within probably two weeks, my arm was all filled in and back to the same size as the other one. Amazing! Use the search function to learn about PEG and other things, and feel free to ask any specific questions. You can count on there being someone here who will have first-hand information to share. There is also a wealth of information on the main part of this site, and with this disease, information is power! Hang tough, Eric. We are here to help you through.