Mark and Gary, thank you for helping me feel abit less anxious. I can't say it enough how much all of you guys amaze me. It makes me feel bad for boo-hooing about myself when I'm not even sure yet what my problem is, and there all of you are, having gone thru so much and are still able to find happiness and joy in your lives. That really makes me feel better! I think I may ask for an anxiety drug. I've always been a nervous person, but would never take the drugs the doctors gave me for anxiety because I was drinking and didn't want to mix them with the booze. I spent time in detox a year and a half ago, only to have a relapse, and then gave it up again after spending the night in the hospital last month. Amazing how fear alone can make a person give up bad vises. I really was clueless about throat cancer until I came into this website. I always worried about lung cancer (have to have chest xrays taken yearly because I have granulomas and have tested positive for tb (altho never had it) one time in my life. But I never even gave throat cancer a thought...because I was ignorant about it all until I came onto this website. I'm just so thankful for finding it now. I'm working on getting my son to quit his chewing and drinking now. He's diabetic too, so it's been a real worry for me. Anyway, I need to get ready for my appt now.....altho the nurse who scheduled it said the oral surgeon would just do a look see today and will biopsy it another day. Wish me luck! Take care and thanks again so very, very much for making me realize that life is worth fighting for and living and there is a light at the end of any tunnel, no matter what the diagnosis! Shelley