Hi Mandi,
I understand exactly how you and your husband feel right now as I went through similar experience last year after completing my treatment for my left tonsil cancer.Like your husband, I didn't have a PEG tube on and everything was clear at the follow-up scans. While I was expecting recovery and returning back to my work as the Assistant Principal of a secondary school, depression set in. The side effects of radiation and chemo were culmulative and the feeling of being useless, not knowing when I could resume my job which I loved so much led me to despair. Depression is a terrible illness, even more scary than cancer. I was thinking of ending my life even though the doctor told me I was in remission. I was finally admitted to hospital for medical help. It was April last year, 4 months post treatment. To cut the story short, family support is very important to prevent the depression from getting worse. One year now I am still on anti-depressants and have to visit my psychiatrist by-monthly.I was back to my job last June until now. If you need further help from me, do give me an e-mail. Have a close watch on your husband and take care,

Karen stage 4 tonsil cancer diagnosed in 9/01.