Sammy, slow down. You have made an appointment and that is the important thing. You will find out when it is time to find out. I remember reading years ago that the two most wasted emotions that we have are guilt and worry in our lives. You can not change anything that has happened, ie: guilt and you cannot predict what the future is going to hold, ie: worry. This is a scary time for you. Please use this forum as a venting board, all of us have been in your shoes, or had relatives in your shoes. Believe me, we all understand. I just wish this board had been in existance two years ago. Take a deep breath and we will help you. Take care Anne.