Dear Packer66 Littlegirl;

I've been away for a while trying to deal with my husband's death. Coping with the death of someone I love so much takes an incredible amount of strength. I've experienced all kinds of emotions--anger being one of them and right there under the surface--but essentially, I've had to work hard to conduct myself with grace and dignity through all that has happened. I don't want Scott's passing to fill me with darkness no matter how sad and angry and lonely I may be; I want his memories to fill me with light and love as he himself did when he was with me.

We're all hurting here, in some way, and we do understand how easy it is sometimes to lash out in anger. Your apology, above, was the appropriate response. Let your dad's memory and love fill your heart with light, and maybe the bad days won't seem quite as bad. Sometimes I think of my Scott and what he would want me to do; I imagine his hand on my shoulder, softly reassuring and guiding me. It's how I get through each day.

Love,
Christine