Hi Joe, hang in there. It is a scary time. One thing I have found out is that the only thing I can do is live. I'm just wating time worrying because if it is, it is and worry won't change that. Like David said educate yourself and it will help. The good thing is this may come back as noncancerous and you can make some lifestyle changes and be a healthier man. It doesn't do any good to look back either. Focus on the changes you want to make and try to make them whether it's cancer or not. Good Luck