Katie, I can't add to the advice that Gary has given...nor the comforting, reassuring words. He's one of our best counselors. I just want to assure you that NO question is too small or too large, and that you do not need to hesitate to ask anything at all, nor do you need to worry about being a pain. It's a scary time for you, but we've all been through it, and we're all at differing stages of the fight against this disease. We've all hoped that we didn't have it, and we've all either had the glorious experience of having tests show us that it was something else, or the spirit-shattering revelation that yes, it was cancer and that we would have a fight on our hands. Either way it goes for you, every one of us understands your feelings, either of terror or of relief, and we'll be here to rejoice with you or to walk the difficult path with you back to good health. Stay near!!