I'll jump on the David-AnneMarie-Sharlee pile-on and strongly urge you to get treatment ASAP!! If you continue on your current self-destructive course, YOU may make it too late to do any good; you posted here for a reason...

It may even be possible to treat you with radiation and spare your saliva glands!! Ask your Docs about IMRT and gland/dental stents; a friend had both at Anderson CC and came out with lots of saliva.
Stent

Worst case, even if you couldn't speak, you can still read and write to use your language skills.

Hopefully, you are within reasonable distance to see the cancer treatment specialists at the Moffit center in Tampa and discuss some options besides denial.

Age 67 1/2
Ventral Tongue SCC T2N0M0G1 10/05
Anterior Tongue SCC T2N0M0G2 6/08
Base of Tongue SCC T2N0M0G2 12/08
Three partial glossectomy (10/05,11/05,6/08), PEG, 37 XRT 66.6 Gy 1/06
Neck dissection, trach, PEG & forearm free flap (6/08)
Total glossectomy, trach, PEG & thigh free flap (12/08)
On August 21, 2010 at 9:20 am, Pete went off to play with the ratties in the sky.