delia,First of all a big welcome to you and your fiance. You have found the best place to be, although my experience is different from yours you are sure to find someone her who will be of infinate help to you, as for me I will be one of the many cheerleaders here encourageing you to oush forward, don't look back, lookahead because there IS light at the end of the tunnel, I am not that far ahead of you and have been experiencing my own little set backs but all in stride the people on the forum will not let you down, happy to have you hear to bad it is under such shitty circumstances. welcome
always lenny