Thanks to all. I when I found this website and started reading present and past post, I new had found the right place. I only wished I had found it earlier. It would have been nice to talk to all of you while we were undergoing treatment and be able to draw from your experiences. We have tons of support around us but no one that has been thru this kind of stuff. I don't feel so alone now. My husband somewhat withdraws and doesn't want to discuss the situation very mcuh. Kind of like the "Men from Mars" thing going on. He wants to mull things over in his cave. He says he doesn't want to think about it and he doesn't want talk about it. He acts as if he doesn't deal with it and it will go away. I can't do that. I have to talk about it so it and get my fears and feeling out. I worry about talking too much to all my friends and coworkers. I don't want to depress them or make them get tired of hearing it. I appreciate having a place that I can vent, ask questions, and learn. I believe what Brian has said... knowlege is power. I understand that no one has complete control over life and death, but it doesn't mean I want stand in the road and wait on that Mac truck to hit me either! I want to make the best decisions possible.

Lenny, you sound much like Jimmy. He is pushing himself so hard. He wants to feel "normal" again. But, his energy level and strength just isn't there yet but he's hanging tough. Thanks

Jimmy goes later this week another pet scan. I just have a gut feeling he is going to be ok! Thanks again to ALL of you!