I am sorry you may be joining this "club" of which no one wants to be a member. Until you have a diagnosis, don't be consumed with the possibilities. Having said that I will admit that the minute I saw the enlarged node on my husbands neck I knew we were in for a battle I just did not know it would be BOT. The really good news is that even though the treatment is brutal, at least there is an effective treatment for many HNC patients. My husband is through treatment and has been able to return to work, he is talking again and looking forward to fun events with family and friends. So, don't despair no matter what the outcome of your testing, you can have good times again.