Dear Sooner~
ah, in turn... me too... I wish we didn't have the reason to connect like this and for this reason, but thank you for reaching out.
I sure do understand the not being the same part of your comments regarding your husband... I can only think it changes one from this experience .. but at the same time he is still not long out of recovery.... it takes a toll on the mind, body and spirit and life as we.. they know and knew it is changed. Maybe as some time passes, parts of recovery can become more accustomed to.

the ability to withstand, endure and find strength in the midst of the treatments is one thing but the recovery is another process and we so desperately want to just get back to our old life again.. fully well knowing it won't really ever be that way again. It is a loss as well..

I often say, that some people don't grieve the loss and maybe that is part of the change.. although, grieving it won't really make it any different will it?
sorry, that was a bit of a philosophical digression.
as a caregiver... I always know what my husband had gone through and continues to go through and that is what I measure myself against.

anyway.. I sure do hope you can find a way to have more amazing weekends and that he too will become more excited about them. ..
take care!! both of you