Hard question to answer. Anxious? Yes. Violated? I'm not sure what you mean.
I mostly remember pain....pain mixed with frustration. (Frustration was based in an inability to communicate effectively and a long line of well meaning doctors and nurses poking around every 30 minutes or so.)
Regardless of the type of surgery, recovery is a very important step. You should focus on eventually being cancer free rather than the temporary discomfort you feel now.
Good Luck
