Thanks so much darrel,gail mac and Jam for your responses they are very uplifting , and I sure do need it at times . I have a huge family and friend support network here in rochester that is unbelievable, however I live alone and night time is the worst when I am alone with my thoughts it makes sleeping difficult and I always anticipate the morning. I keep pushing myself daily to more and more things of my past routines, however getting back to being in front of the classroom seems to be a long ways off, my damn throat is to sore for one. I am glad that i found this site and hope that I will keep hearing those positive reassurences they sure provide a needed boost thanks so much and god bless you all.