Hello there. I just had a biopsy done on Monday and was told it was oral cancer yesterday. I don't know anything else yet. Thus, I haven't told anyone. I'm 26 years old. I suppose this is the shock stage.
But,
that's not really an introduction.
My name is Amanda. I live in Massachusetts. I'm originally from Louisiana, where all of my family is. I love travel, photography, coffee and anything that allows me to be outdoors. I'm still working on my undergrad degree in archaeology. I love languages and music, poetry and reading.
I'm in love with an incredible man. We live together.
His birthday is Sunday and well, I didn't want to ruin it so I'm holding off on telling him.
That makes me feel selfish.

This is going to be psychologically and emotionally exhausting, this whole cancer thing.
It doesn't seem real. Not that I want it to? I'm just... numb. The doctor called yesterday right after work. He said, "Well, I wish I had better news for you" and it felt like all of the air left my body. I just said, "oh".
I have an appointment Monday with an ear, nose and throat specialist. I have no idea what to expect. I'm guessing tests to get a full diagnosis? Then probably building a treatment plan?

I'm supposed to start school again on Tuesday.

So, that's where I'm at. I don't have many (any) close friends here in the north so I thought it would be best to reach out starting now. I know myself. I want to believe I can do anything on my own but this, this I know I can't.
Anyhow. Feel free to message me. I'd love to get to know you and hear your story.