Gonna have annual PET, MRI, CT scan next month or whatever my ENT orders. It's hard to believe it's been that long. I truly hope all are doing as well as I am. I have not posted in a while, just lurking & most of the time feel almost guilty for doing so well compared to some others here. My mom died 2 weeks ago. She has been ill all my life & the last 6 months to a year or so she has been just miserable. Complications of diabetes finally got her & we agreed with her to just let her go. 72 years old. She did not want to fight anymore. I think back on her life through my eyes & have to give her credit for her will to overcome & the health issues she has dealt with. Her endless health issues & long list of major surgeries even surprised the professionals. She is at peace now & no longer has to fight just to go to the bathroom or overcome fear of falling or insulin crashing & ending up in the hospital one more time in an endless fight just to be some what normal. I'm rambling, but with my own health issues over the last couple of years & coming to grips with my own mortality & now burying a parent for the first time I feel so much more compelled to live life to the fullest & be the happiest I can be. Life is short & I intend to enjoy myself! There are still things I can not eat very well, but most things I can. Tonight I am drinking rum & coke with fresh squeezed lemon. I do not drink that much, but the rum was a bottle found in my mom's kitchen that had obviously been there for years & I got a lemon seed stuck under my free flap! At least I can still get a buzz on by choice & not cause I'm trying to numb some pain like last year during treatment. I am rambling now. To all who are new to the boards, I do wish you peace & serenity & a new appreciation for life as long or as short as it maybe. Glass half full or half empty? I hope you all choose full! Erik