Thanks for the remarks Maureen! I really haven't been too worried or scared up until the past couple of days. I have a couple of friends who are going to help me financially (make my car payments, etc) if I have to be out of work for an extended period due to having to go for radiation/chemo. I appreciate all that. I am just starting to feel like this could go down the crapper for me. It's frustrating that we will not have the results of the node biopsy for over a week after surgery. I guess if there is something there, it might be obvious at surgery and I will find out when I wake up. It could go great, and I will only have 1/4 or less tongue removed and then have clear nodes and not need radiation/chemo. It could happen. I guess I am just feeling kind of scared and bummed out...starting to feel like that isn't going to happen. I will have to just go thru with all this and see what comes of it.
My friend is coming Thurs-Mon night. I hope I am home by then. The surgery is Weds. My sister said she could come up from Florida, but I want to save her visit till after I find out about radiation/chemo. I figure I may need help once side effects kick in if I do need to have those things. I figure I can wing it on my own after my friend leaves. I have a few friends in town who can stop in, etc if need be. I figure I won't be doing much more than taking pain meds and laying on the sofa anyway.
I better stop feeling sorry for myself, cause it just makes it worse. Denise