Liam the sadness is normal, but don't get too hung up on it. You're not responsibile for all the problems in the world. Your ENT would be inspired by countless stories like yours, and be more aware than most how to mentally organise his thoughts to face the challenge.

Cheers, Dave (OzMojo)
19Feb2014 Diagnosed T2N2bM0 P16+ve SCC Tonsil.
31Mar2014 2 Cisplatin, 70gy over 7 weeks (completed 16May2014)
11August2014 PET/CT clear.
17July2019 5 years NED.