 Administrator, Director of Patient Support Services Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)
Joined: Jun 2007 Posts: 10,507 Likes: 7 | Estelle, I know how difficult it is to not be concerned about a recurrence. Its the biggest fear we all share in together.
As time goes on you will hopefully learn to not dwell on this so much. A recurrence is beyond your control. Worrying will only cause undue stress which isnt healthy.
I do understand you but please do something to help yourself. If your absolutely must go there, try to only allow yourself 5 minutes before you "change the channel" and focus on more positive things. With practice it gets easier to turn this off. Keeping busy with positive things also helps to keep your mind otherwise engaged.
ChristineSCC 6/15/07 L chk & by L molar both Stag I, age44 2x cispltn-35 IMRT end 9/27/07 -65 lbs in 2 mo, no caregvr Clear PET 1/08 4/4/08 recur L chk Stag I surg 4/16/08 clr marg 215 HBO dives 3/09 teeth out, trismus 7/2/09 recur, Stg IV 8/24/09 trach, ND, mandiblctmy 3wks medicly inducd coma 2 mo xtended hospital stay, ICU & burn unit PICC line IV antibx 8 mo 10/4/10, 2/14/11 reconst surg OC 3x in 3 years very happy to be alive  | 
