Allow yourself all the time you need to grieve, but work to avoid asking the question about things getting better.

They will, because your grief is as bad as emotions can be. Your mind knows that his suffering is at an end, and he is at peace now.

Simply not allowing your mind to dwell on questions like that give your mind the space to realize that, but right now the grief prevents it.

Allowing yourself the freedom to grieve unreservedly now, without the self-pity that your question invokes, will allow the grief to take its natural course and allow you to return to a normal state soonest.

And please do not be offended by my use of "self-pity." I mean no offense, it's a natural reaction, but it still needs being avoided if you want to return to normalcy. It's very destructive.

Best wishes for you Cheryl,

Bart