Hi Steven,

That's not what it was meant to be.

What it [b]is[/b] meant to be is a warning that one's attitude going into this can have a large part in how much suffering one has to endure while going through this.

It is also a warning that one's attitude could lead to the least desirable outcome, if your death is that. That is, by seeking to avoid the most successful path because you wish to avoid the unpleasantness it imposes, one could easily insure that it returns. And kills you.

My approach, and I suggest it to you, is to go in to each meeting with the medics with a simple desire to learn what the reality of my situation is at the moment. The questions I ask are what can I do to minimize the negative and maximize my chances, however slim they may look.

I do not have a preferred outcome.

That makes it simple to keep an inner serenity. Hell, it's not as if each and every one of us is NOT going to die, whatever the outcome of this business might prove to be; and because none of us know when that event will happen, timing is not involved either.

Capishe?