Welcome to OCF! Im so sorry you are struggling with being in limbo. It must be so difficult not knowing what is going on with your health.

You have come to the right place for info and support. We are not medical professionals but we have walked the same path so we understand where you are coming from.

After going thru being diagnosed with OC 3 times Ive learned a couple things about how to deal with the stress of an unsure future. Do your very best to not procrastinate. Try your very best to live as if you were healthy. Cancer is like a thief and steals your time away from you. Time spent worrying and thinking "what if..." is time taken away from you that you can never get back. With practice you can help yourself by doing positive things you enjoy. It really does help relieve some of the pressure you are dealing with.

Hang in there!!! Better days are coming.

Christine
SCC 6/15/07 L chk & by L molar both Stag I, age44
2x cispltn-35 IMRT end 9/27/07
-65 lbs in 2 mo, no caregvr
Clear PET 1/08
4/4/08 recur L chk Stag I
surg 4/16/08 clr marg
215 HBO dives
3/09 teeth out, trismus
7/2/09 recur, Stg IV
8/24/09 trach, ND, mandiblctmy
3wks medicly inducd coma
2 mo xtended hospital stay, ICU & burn unit
PICC line IV antibx 8 mo
10/4/10, 2/14/11 reconst surg
OC 3x in 3 years
very happy to be alive smile