Thanks Cheryl. I agree with you in principle but it felt right to pull myself up from the pits of post operative wretchedness before thinking of the more distant future. My surgeon doesn't pull any punches. I've just told him I'm fine to wait for the pathology results before he tells me how bad/not so bad it is. He doesn't know himself yet. It's now two weeks since the op and I know they can take three weeks ... I hope to see him just after that three week mark. I'm going to prepare myself for the meeting ... more surgery would be devastating ... I'm going to have to dig deep to face that possibility. As for RT I've researched that tentatively: sounds bad but at least it doesn't require hospitalization.
But thanks for your words. Makes me realise that I need to gird my loins for the next step, especially now I'm feeling better.