Denise, welcome to OCF! Im glad you have found the forum. Its not always easy to understand exactly what patients go thru but we 'get you'. We have been there and gotten thru it.

One thing you may have misunderstood, most patients do NOT have recurrences. You may see many here with recurrences but that doesnt mean the majority of all OC patients will ever go thru it again. Just many who have had recurrences stick around and help others, while many who have been thru it once will go back to their pre-cancer lives and only stop back occasionally. Try not to worry about the statistics. Thats beyond your control and its just numbers.

Focus your energy on things you can control like good nutrition and hydration. Thats what will help you get thru this easier. Every single day take in a minimum of 2500 calories and 48 oz of water. If you are already suffering from anxiety, if you arent taking something for it please seek out someone to help. Many OC patients struggle with depression and take meds for the anxiety. Even some caregivers need a hand to get past this phase of their lives. Its better to get the help lined up than to ignore something that can make this whole thing more difficult.

Best wishes!