Stefsoscared,
I couldn't be more understanding about your situation. I am going through the same thing. I don't want to have cancer, but I am looking for help through this site. It's possible neither one of us have cancer, but yet it is possible we do. I had my symptoms months before I ever heard of BOT cancer and I don't diagnose myself with Dr. Google. I am not crazy either and I understand your frustration. You have a friend in me.