Maybe I am a wimp, I don't know but I am 7 weeks out and I don't see me getting off the pain meds anytime soon. I am still taking my 5 mg Oxycontin IR, I thought maybe a couple weeks ago I would try and backed off of them and everything went south. I hurt so I wasn't eating and drinking enough, lost more weight, swallowing became more of an issue, weak, tired, got very depressed.
Sometimes I swear I hurt more now than I did 4 weeks ago. Every time I try to slow down with the pain meds I stop improving and I go the other direction. I don't know how long I will need these meds, sometimes I worry about addiction, but that is a bridge I will cross later when its time. I am not going to worry about it anymore.

AGE 38 10-2012 thru 3-2012 swollen lymph node,painful jaw and ear,2 antibiotics,X-ray,CAT scan,needle biopsy,scope, no answers
3-4-13 tonsillectomy and selective neck dissection, DX R tonsil SCC,METS to 1 lymph node,BOT,HPV+, stage IV
TX 35 RAD,3 chemo cisplatin/Taxol started 4-8-13
rad end 5-29-13