How do I cope with the way I look? I am struggling with swelling in my face that makes me look freaky and disfigured. I am embarrassed to go out sometimes. Sometimes I don't care, but sometimes I don't even want my family to see me. I know I don't feel this way about other people, eg., don't care what they look like. I would appreciate any advice or if there is a smaller group dealing this issue.
Thanks,
Judy


1997 MEC low grade
1 neck node removed--no primary,
stopped monitoring in 2003
(BIG mistake!)
2009 BOT, bilateral lymph
IMRT+Cispl
2011 recurrence, hemi-glossectomy,
margins clear, reclassified hi-grade
2012 recurrence, total G +
laryngectomy,
2013 Mets, now in chemo