Wow, just read your reply "T"... This needs to be published! Wish I could have read earlier in this whole nightmare, but still very very helpful. Helps to read all the replies as well, as often surprised by some of my husbands replies and often in tears . Recently told my mom that he will probably divorce me when this is all over- because on days/times when he is perked up, I'm left to feel like I'm unable to do anything right and seem to ignite such anger and bullheadedness! Crying yourself to sleep, pillows over Cg head, getting thrown off balcony- thanks had to chuckle at that....I do have a secure feeling as knowing I can out run him right now ! Very reassuring to know that these are all just part of the process for both of us! Thank you.