Sorry, can`t stop....

But here some facts about the damn thing in my mouth (I just need to write this down)

- it came there very fast, 14 months ago. It was looking like fresh thing, had redness around it for a few days, and it was little hurting. redness and pain disappeared withing couple of days.

- Then it looked like there are one or two tiny whitish spots there in a middle, when this happened I could feel it with tongue being more "raised". When spots gone, more flat "rough area" there (This is how it`s been for a while now). I think there are some stuff that comes out from those white spots....and then it goes flat because no liquid or whatever there anymore. hah, great explanation.

- It was 90% gone couple of months ago. It was not visible anymore, and could feel only a tiny tiny rough area there. This would last only a few days I guess. not sure because I stopped worrying about it. But it eventually came back there and been there since then and my worrying.

-I`ve had oral/throat/sinus problems for years. I think I have some yeast problem(beer!) + dry mouth. all kinds of weird sensations, bad tastes etc.

- 3 dentists(said earlier 2, but 3 actually) said it does not look cancerous, not "angry" or anything. The one who said about biopsy thought it is the only way to make me believe it, I guess.

Everybody are telling me I would not be here wondering about if it is cancer or not, after 14 months? Would it have grown bigger already? I have a long history with health anxiety, oral c fear being the biggest one. I remember running to dentists every second week some years ago, to show every damn pimple in my mouth, so this one has been a looooong torture for me worst fears coming true.