i am going through all my firsts and every one is difficult, trying to put my life back together without my husband joel who passed away in july 2012. try staying busy and know he would want me to pull myself up and keep on going, that is the voice inside my head when i am feeling down, and surrounding myself with family and friends helps.my heart goes out to you all who are struggling the same as i am.

CG to Joel 1st tumor flr of mouth 1998, 38 rad trmts 2nd tumor back of mouth/throat, rad neck, part remvl of jaw, soft palate rmvl, no chemo or rad, has a peg tube since dec 2011.Frmr smkr 25yrs ago, drinker, worked in HVAC indus 35yrs. 3rd dx on 6/20/12, hospice6/29/12, died July 17, 2012