Kelly

My bad about the HPV. Nobody is more surprised than me about the sudden late effects of the radiation. I keep telling myself that is what it is. the new pills and TX regime are helping. But it's nothing compared to what you are going through now. This is just not fair.

You count on my full support whatever your decision here is.
I too detect the weariness in these posts and have felt the same way sometimes. Like the email I sent, in times like these, that old childhood prayer: [quote]Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep, And if I die before i wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take[/quote] suddenly seems less macabre and fatalistic and more like a good ending.
Although the one caregiver poster here whose husband did just die in his sleep expressed guilt and grief. All these things factor in facing this. Here is hoping for some major palliative without QOL that gives you years more.
The viral approach does sound intriguing and promising. I know you are a fighter and tough as hell, but this is beyond the pale. You are really showing Grace under Pressure.
Charm