Hi there... I have been there... it takes a while to get past it. With every year and clean check up that passes you get a little less freaked. For me it is still relatively early in the healing process. Two weeks from now will be the second year anniversary since my surgery. I have those moments of fear still. But at some point you have to stop giving your life over to the diagnosis and live... otherwise the time you do have is a waste. Yes we've had Cancer and yes it could come back, but we could also be hit my a truck tomorrow... hugs... Mind you the next time I have a mouth sore or a cold I'll still have that moment of panic and need to be talked down.. hugs!

Cheryl : Irritation - 2004 BX: 6/2008 : Inflam. BX: 12/10, DX: 12/10 : SCC - LS tongue well dif. T2N1M0. 2/11 hemigloss + recon. : PND - 40 nodes - 39 clear. 3/11 - 5/11 IMRT 33 + cis x2, PEG 3/28/11 - 5/19/11 3 head, 2 chest scans - clear(fingers crossed) HPV-, No smoke, drink, or drugs, Vegan